PHOENICIA

Yesterday our relative visit us,. He came from Dubai where he work. but he lives in Alsharqa near Dubai border.

Our conversation was about Islam. He told me that some neighbors came several time to share them their pray! Their invitation wasn't innocent. They want to know his religion or his section!

he told me that he himself had bad impression about islam eventhough he was born in muslim family but he's not religious…

I agree with him about this. It's not respectful action to interfere in other's thoughts. I'm not religious too, but I live in muslim country too and I know how people think.
They are kind people with good moral thoughts, but they can't give up this knot. They don't believe that others are different or have opposite thoughts about main belief they have.

Sure not all Muslims are like this, but many of them. That gives bad results, their image is not clear even to many moderate muslims or not religious people who was born in Muslim family!

It's strange that you have difficulties in understanding many people you live with them! They are kind and good, but religion is red line! What for? Everyone is responsible for his/her life and thoughts. Are they trying to correct other's beliefs according to their ones?
Anyway life existed to live in it? Not to make million ideas about it….

I always thought that death or missing someone very close will change me, BUT what I discovered is really different..

When they told me to come back to my house for three days, I knew that sth unusual happened, but no one told me that I lose my brother forever!
My military service isn't so difficult, but isolation there is the real problem. I can remember when I get out camp I felt that my life in danger!

It was wrong feeling, in that moment I wanted to cry or to do sth crazy.. at that moment I didn't know that my heart will break.

After four hours, I was in our flat in Tartus on the coast, when I smelled the sea i smelled sth so black, but I couldn't distinguish that it's death.

When I entered our flat I see black dresses and tears in eyes. I searched for my mom then dad then my heart squeezed tightly and my brain got out my head. Who is missing? Majd or samer? I didn't want to hear any of these names, majd older then me two years. SAmer is younger than me six years.

then dad told me that majd is passed away.
Death isn't frightening as I thought! I'm now more fanatic for life. I want to live interesting life not to think about fame or wealth. I can say that my brother death gave me the meaning of life, simplicity, smile and adventure.

I'm in bad situation… maybe the worst that I could imagine…
Beside I'm doing military service, sth happened break my heart. My brother Majd passed away 15 days ago.
So… I lived black days. I never expect sth like this… all bad things came together! Military service and death
Now I feel that I'm older than I was! I feel that my life is more valuable.
I don't want to live normal life, because my brother passed away although he still 25
I hope that I didn't bother you, but this's my life now…